'cause nobody loves me, it's true.
Log From: Zodion
Where: In the streets, later Mink's place.
What: Mink stalks Akira and also Aoba because he's disturbed as shit.
Warning: Mink. Basically violence, brutal rape.
Although he'd made a few fairly decisive motions in that direction before the present state of things, Mink wasn't setting out with any explicit plan to hunt Akira down and effectively take control of his freedom. Not... really. Not on that particular day, anyway. And not with any conscious effort, not when his momentary needs were already sated and the change in the world was presently making everything much harder to pin down. Everything was smaller and narrower, producing infinite places to hide; people were living with their lords, lords living with their families, with no way to ascertain where one would find a man who did not want to be found.
And, simply put, Akira wasn't any more urgent a concern than anything else would be, in Zodion; Mink was dealing with everything according to the same expectation, the same anticipation of being torn away at any time with things left undone. There was no use in putting a value on any act that could be abandoned so simply, so while Akira had been enough to provoke his interest, while Akira fought and spoke and yelled and moved with a fascinating and destructible fragility, while Mink had a very focused curiosity on his behaviour... that still had to apply to him. That he was a disposable pastime. A distraction from Mink's bitter thoughts, a place to put his bitterness in.
So no. Today wasn't meant to be a day concerning Akira at all.
Mink had only two priorities in the forefront of his mind. One was the new and present change in the world, and learning about the world through his experience of it. What was important. What wasn't. What would be affected, when this was all over, by his decisions.
The other was a more persistent concern that no amount of challenge would keep him from. The only problem he was definitely going to take home with him, and therefore of greatest importance.
He'd not spoken to Aoba since the day of their arrival, but he already knew that the number of people who were likely to take an interest in him was steadily rising; if his friend was to be believed, there was more than one threat to be worrying about, now. What Aoba did while he was stuck in Zodion meant rather little to him, but even that was within reason, within the extent to which his need for him went unaffected. It didn't mean it was something he could afford to neglect. It didn't mean that Aoba could continue on enjoying Minklessness forever.
Some things hadn't changed much, and it was Aoba's job at home that gave him some inkling of where to find him, despite the unnavigable mess of the streets.
Once Mink was in the right district, Aoba was easy enough to recognise by that shock of unusual blue hair, even through dirty store front windows; he moved to the opposite side of the road and stood back under the awning of an opposite building an in the shadow of the sun, leaning his broad shoulders into the window's panelling. Just to watch. Just to see who would come, who would go, when he left, what his life had become. To compare to his regular monitoring.
(He'd not spoken to Aoba since they arrived. But it didn't mean he wasn't watching him.)
— But what he didn't expect was to see Akira come up to the counter less than a minute later. He was smiling slightly as they spoke, and Mink's gaze narrowed with silent interest, watching their muted exchange through the bustling crowds and the glass panels. Noticing that cheerful affection, the familiarity. They knew each other. They were friends.
Interesting. He crossed his arms, slowly, and he watched their expressions, the warmth, their contact, at odds with the expressions he'd come to expect from either of them. And all the while, his mind ticked over on what to do with that information — how best to deal with the matter of Aoba, and his infinite capacity for friendship.
Perhaps Akira had spared Aoba a visitation from someone less savoury, but it was at some cost. As soon as Akira left the shop, Mink was slowly falling into step behind him, heavy boots muted by a surprising stealth for someone of his size. He followed him out of the busy marketplace, and as the crowds thinned and the voices grew dim in the residential area, it wasn't long before he could act without disturbance.
It was, as it happened, already fairly close to Mink's apartment when his large hand closed down on the back of Akira's neck, and never really breaking pace, he fell in beside him, his head bowed and inclined slightly towards him, speaking close to his hair.
"Come with me."
He hated this place for a lot of reasons.
Maybe he deserved the cards dealt to him, he wasn't sure, anymore. But even if he did, that didn't mean he didn't resent what was handed to him.
Which was perhaps why this life he'd been given suddenly by Zodion seemed too good to be true. Being a thief wasn't his preferred profession, but it wasn't the worst, either. From his given memories, he seemed to carry some set of morals with him and that was a comfort.
Rob from the rich, give to the poor. All that good junk, just like out of one of the storybooks read as a child.
But perhaps the best part, the most enticing part that made him both the most confused and the most content was Aoba. It was strange to be given a set of memories that didn't belong to him as if he was just expected to act it out like he didn't know the difference from fantasy and reality. And this was a very very well played out fantasy, to say the least, but a fantasy all the same. He'd liked Aoba on first meeting, felt a comforting presence there in that smile, but nothing he knew or experienced had prepared him for this.
It was perhaps why he found himself agonizing over the very idea of going to visit the other. What if the memories, the feelings that had been instilled in him were only one sided? He liked Aoba—well, more than liked now without a choice of his own—and wasn't really interested in the Twelve interfering in a possible friendship with their stupidity. So he avoided the matter.
For as long as he could, anyway.
Which wasn't very long at all, if he counted. According to memory, it'd been only two days since he last visited the other when he finally succumbed and he sighed, clearly frustrated, as he made his way to the shop. What was he to tell Aoba, he wondered? How was he to approach such an awkward thing being thrust upon them? He didn't know and it wasn't as if things of this nature were easy for him to discuss before.
...As if anything was easy for him to discuss.
But when he approached the counter after the last customer left Aoba's shop, the way Aoba's expression lighted up in response to a shy smile told him enough. They didn't really need to discuss it because they were on the same page. So, for a few moments in time, Akira was happy. He felt comfortable in Aoba's presence and their small talk was pleasant even being about really nothing at all. It was a nice feeling, being around someone who wanted you and your company. In fact, it was an experience he could almost find himself thanking the Twelve for, with all their miserable antics and interferences and strings that must have been pulled to create such a fairy tale as this.
(But his life was still so small compared to the others they had affected. The nobility, for example, or even the King and his family. Just how many lives had they thrown upside down with this?)
Happiness was fleeting, though.
He left Aoba in the shyest of manners, unable to coax forth the parting affection that the other deserved. But Aoba understood that, too, and had the most pleasing smile to offer in return that Akira wondered what he'd done to suddenly deserve such a person in his life. Neither of them had to accept the role given to them, but it seemed so much easier than to fight, for once, and so much more welcoming of an outcome.
Except the fairy tale started to fade with the dwindling crowds as Akira wandered, lost in his thoughts. Reality started to set in and the happiness that quelled his chest while at the shop started to turn sour. Guilt pressed heavily into his gut, and images started to haunt him. The deserted streets and dark alleyways unfolded no differently they did in Toshima and he closed his eyes, feeling the prickle of a rain torrent that didn't currently exist pull at his jacket through to his skin.
He could smell his own, cursed and awful, blood that he wished had never existed flood his senses. And he could see it, that poison glinting red off of the hatchet blade held by his most precious person. Just as he did then, all he could do now was watch in horror when that blood made it to the other's mouth.
—Memories were merciless.
He felt guilt. A horrible, terrible feeling wrenching at his insides that made him want to scream. He felt an aching worry that if this joke didn't end then somehow things would fall into the same pattern. If things continued like this, would he lose Aoba, too?
Keisuke.
It was too much.
He couldn't hear Mink, but he could smell him even through that illusion his mind was playing on him. But he couldn't bring himself far enough away from his wounds, couldn't pull himself away from that overwhelming grief that consumed him along with the panicked thoughts of another loss. Aoba didn't do anything to deserve this, he'd never hurt him, he couldn't possibly—
—but, what if—
Akira's eyes narrowed, his entire frame stiffening at the heavy touch upon his neck. The thoughts dissipated, the iron smell dying out to leave his nostrils burned by the sweet scent of cinnamon. And now he could react, now he could think clearly of the here and now but it was too late to react to anything. Those words dripped from his hair down his neck and into his spine and for a single moment he thought well, finally, at least it was something that made sense.
At least it was something he more or less deserved, even if he hated. He'd not by any means forgotten the implanted memories of Mink, the supposed role he played with him any more than the supposed memories of Aoba, but he sure as hell did a run around to avoid them.
Clenching his teeth, he didn't make a move to pull away, already well aware of Mink's strength from their last encounter. It took him a few moments of silence, a fear welling inside at the helplessness he felt in the other's presence—the helplessness that was a reality—before he finally gathered the gall to hiss out a question.
"What do you want?"
Mink didn't bother answering him. Akira was moving, he was complying with what Mink wanted, so there was no reason to clarify it for him, just yet; the answer was something he would make clear when they reached their destination, and with the pace Mink's feet were moving, with the force behind the broad palm on the back of Akira's neck, he clearly knew exactly where he was headed with him. It didn't take long before the buildings started to look more rotten, more ramshackle, and then fell away altogether into rubble and dust.
Towards the edge of the town was a dinky little shack, all rotten wood and decrepit-looking, weathered and dismal against a bleak sky. His 'apartment', so to speak — at least for the duration of this experience. It almost looked monochrome, bleached of colour, but there were little bits of evidence of life speckled neatly around the patchy grass and dirt surrounding the steps up to the entrance. Old rope, a rusted knife clearly used for outside work, and a rather anachronistic box of matches that he must have brought with him from the present day. He took him past all of it, up the creaking steps, and through the lopsided door.
The interior was incredibly spartan, showcasing just a few little items set back into the shadows, illuminated only by the greasy light streaking sluggishly through a small square window. A little dusty cot was parked at the far right of the room, and everything else spread slowly out towards the left; a low table and stool populated by wood-eating insects, a small tub clearly used for bathing, and a cold stone hearth that hadn't seen fire in too long, due to a smoky chimney.
He threw Akira down on the floor in front of the door, freeing his hands to close it behind them. That was all the time he took before he dropped onto his knees over him, shoved him back into the wooden floor, and got in close to his face, his long dreads falling and thumping on Akira's shoulders and the floor. His hand twisted up in his t-shirt to lift it up, and his other hand, rubbed up over his bare stomach, the defined muscle there, making his intentions obvious.
"Where do you know him from. How long have you known him. Why are you speaking to him."
...It reminded him of Toshima.
Akira hit the floor hard, the sudden movement giving him little time to catch himself. A small grunt escaped him, feeling the floor splinter against him from impact. In truth, he wasted very little time moving, twisting himself around to try and get back to his feet, but Mink was faster. His back hit the wooden floorboards with an unceremonious thud, but he managed to keep his head from doing the same. However, when he could finally focus, open his eyes which he had closed on impact, he found himself staring at Mink from a very close and uncomfortable distance.
Still, he refused to look away, refused to move his head off to the side or show any sort of submission towards Mink's actions. His eyes were clouded with frustration and defiance, and that defiance only solidified more definitively when the other's hands raised his shirt and moved over bare skin.
(No. NO.)
It would have been a lie to say he wasn't panicking deep on the inside, that he didn't fear what was being suggested. But Mink's words were unexpected and it took him a moment to understand what he meant by him.
...Aoba.
Of course, it made sense. Koujaku had been the one to warn him about Mink in the first place. Aoba and Koujaku were best friends, so it only was natural to come to the conclusion that Aoba and Mink were at the very least acquainted.
And that? That pissed Akira off. Because he couldn't see this guy treating anyone well, couldn't see any way that he and Aoba could actually have a healthy relationship. Maybe something had happened already, or maybe not. The point was that Akira wasn't about to let it go any further than here. He wasn't going to tell Mink things about Aoba that he didn't already know.
Suffer in never knowing, bastard.
"Go to hell."
Akira should probably have known by then that there was only one correct answer to any of Mink's questions — but apparently he'd forgotten the importance of complying to a superior power. It was just lucky for him that Mink was in the mood to re-establish some sense of order and obedience with him, or that kind of answer would bring much heavier repercussions —
So he moved back and struck him across the face, hard enough for a hell of a whack to resound through the barren room as his knuckles connected with bone, a pain most normal men would feel. He gripped his face and twisted it roughly back towards him, hardly giving him a moment to catch his breath; he pinched his mouth in by his jaw, gripping his teeth through his flesh. As he shifted his weight, moving to get more leverage and balance his centre of gravity, the old wood creaked under his heavy, muscle-bound weight.
A great shadow of rough fingers and hard bone, he seemed to engulf Akira just by being over him.
"I'll take you there."
His other thick palm moved lower, and he roughly pulled apart the button of his pants.
"Don't think that because you're useful to me, I won't kill you. If it's a choice between you or Aoba, you will always be more worthless." He tightened his grip on Akira's face, and then let go. "If you're speaking to that guy, I want answers."
He should have expected it, but it still hurt. The sound of the hit was almost as painful as the hit itself, it resonating in his ears as his entire head took a swim from the force of the strike. Akira didn't cry out, too stunned by the force of the blow to react. When his face was grabbed and he was forced back to look at Mink, he found himself tasting the smallest bit of copper in his mouth as it slid over his tongue and traveled down to the back of his throat.
He only flinched, closing his eyes momentarily when that other hand pulled open the button fastening his pants. Involuntarily, the words Mink spoke sank into Akira's head, and the grip tightening on his jaw hurt more than he was willing to admit. But, then, it disappeared. And, almost immediately, Akira was coughing, sucking in air that he'd held off on since the punch. It was as if reality came crashing back into him, remembering how to breathe, remembering where he was and what was happening.
His coughing fit lasted only a moment before he finally opened his eyes again, glaring up at Mink. Those words pulled at his curiosity, made him wonder just what Aoba was to Mink. But, this was certainly no time to be asking questions.
Kill him, huh? That might be preferable to what was currently happening.
"I'm not telling you anything, so do your worst," Akira snapped in between breaths, trying not to let the fear welling up inside overtake him. He wasn't about to let this person control him. "Aoba doesn't belong to you or anyone else."
Well, if that was how he wanted it.
Mink drove his fist into Akira's solar plexus, forcing the air out and paralysing his diaphragm; within moments, he was flipping him onto his back, grabbing him by his hips and dragging him back against him, forcing Akira's legs to fold under him. It was all so routine, so disgustingly efficient, but what else should a person expect from a man who kept his promises, who had lived a life like his?
He grabbed Akira by the hair and smashed his nose against the wood, grinding his face into it, smearing blood over it like he's a disobedient dog.
"If you don't tell me, it'll be him next." It was easy to work akira's pants off his hips, at that point, and Mink's voice was low and threatening and a little ragged when he pushed them down off his thighs. "... Is that what you want?"
It happened so fast, he didn't even realize it, particularly when the wind was struck out of him. All he could identify was the feeling of pain, his face striking the hard wood and the feeling of his own blood being smeared across his face. He wanted to cry out but he couldn't, unable to suck in enough air to make his pain vocal, which he supposed was just as well.
The hit left him dizzy, barely registering Mink's words and actions. But, despite everything, he didn't miss it. He didn't miss that threat and everything became second to those words. Panic enveloped him, not for his own sake but for Aoba's. Mink didn't seem like the type to make empty threats and somewhere, maybe, he had hoped this sort of threat wouldn't ever surface. But, it had, and now he was stuck between a rock and a hard place, unable to deny that he did very much worry about Aoba's safety.
Goddamn it.
It took him a moment to answer, trying to recover his breath as he did his best to ignore the position he was being put in. No, everything had to be second to Aoba's safety.
"No...! Just leave him alone!" Akira's breath came in gulps, his words a strangled cry. He tried to gather sentences together to answer, but nothing came out other than a desperate plea, his fingernails scraping against the hard wood of the floor before his hands curled into fists. "...Don't... just..."
Mink's actions seemed utterly unshakeable. As Akira squirmed, he kept his head pressed down. As he spoke through panicked, broken breaths, Mink still dragged his hands up his thighs, he still spat on his fingers, he still pressed them against Akira's ass and slowly forcefully worked him inside, past desperate resistance. Nothing fazed him, nothing stopped him.
The worst that could be said was that Akira managed to make him smile. Leave him alone? He breathed sharply through his nose, he shallowly fucked him with his fingers and leaned forward on the creaking floorboards, pressing his weight onto Akira's skull to move down close, hissing against his ear.
"It isn't your place to say that. It's mine." His long dreads thumped against the floor over Akira's head. "... You aren't anyone. If you try to make something of yourself, you'll become an obstacle, and I'll kill you. Don't think you have any power, here — stay a filthy dog who begs for obedience. It's the only way that suits you."
He crooks his fingers inside him, he twists them so they face palm-down.
"Do you think I won't do my worst? There's more at stake than your body."
Akira gritted his teeth hard as he felt the touch slide up the skin of his naked thighs, but it didn't stop him from making a small sound when the other's fingers pushed inside of him. It hurt more than he was willing to admit, the spit doing very little for making it easier.
But that wasn't the point of this, now was it?
He squeezed his eyes shut, the movement of the fingers moving back and forth inside of him uncomfortable at best and painful at worst, but he refused to let any more sounds escape him. He'd endure it, suffer through it in as much silence as possible, just like he did with Keisuke.
But the pressure against his head and the sudden voice at his ear caused him to open his eyes, them narrowing as he did the only thing he could do: listen. The words enraged him, though, sparked a fire that he'd thought had died since he arrived here. How many times had he heard something like that? It wasn't that he was surprised that Mink would say such a thing. But it lit memories that had started to dull into the back of his mind, brought them to the forefront of his mind and to burn.
This... this.
He opened his mouth to reply, but before he could say anything he felt the sudden change of Mink's fingers, and all that escaped was a short but sharp cry.
And he was stuck again listening, listening to the threats and Akira felt a slight shiver of fear course through his shoulders and down his spine. He didn't think of Mink as one to bluff, as one to give mercy once he said he'd do something, but nevertheless it ultimately changed little in the scheme of things.
Although he couldn't move his head, although the blood stuck and smeared his cheek and the side of his face and his nose was still weeping blood, and although the fear was real and screaming inside for him to submit— to try and give whatever Mink wanted in hopes of escaping this—he did the only thing he really knew how to do.
"...Even so, you..." he breathed, the words slipping out in shallow pieces, but heavily drenched in venom, "...are not my master."
Where: In the streets, later Mink's place.
What: Mink stalks Akira and also Aoba because he's disturbed as shit.
Warning: Mink. Basically violence, brutal rape.
And, simply put, Akira wasn't any more urgent a concern than anything else would be, in Zodion; Mink was dealing with everything according to the same expectation, the same anticipation of being torn away at any time with things left undone. There was no use in putting a value on any act that could be abandoned so simply, so while Akira had been enough to provoke his interest, while Akira fought and spoke and yelled and moved with a fascinating and destructible fragility, while Mink had a very focused curiosity on his behaviour... that still had to apply to him. That he was a disposable pastime. A distraction from Mink's bitter thoughts, a place to put his bitterness in.
So no. Today wasn't meant to be a day concerning Akira at all.
Mink had only two priorities in the forefront of his mind. One was the new and present change in the world, and learning about the world through his experience of it. What was important. What wasn't. What would be affected, when this was all over, by his decisions.
The other was a more persistent concern that no amount of challenge would keep him from. The only problem he was definitely going to take home with him, and therefore of greatest importance.
He'd not spoken to Aoba since the day of their arrival, but he already knew that the number of people who were likely to take an interest in him was steadily rising; if his friend was to be believed, there was more than one threat to be worrying about, now. What Aoba did while he was stuck in Zodion meant rather little to him, but even that was within reason, within the extent to which his need for him went unaffected. It didn't mean it was something he could afford to neglect. It didn't mean that Aoba could continue on enjoying Minklessness forever.
Some things hadn't changed much, and it was Aoba's job at home that gave him some inkling of where to find him, despite the unnavigable mess of the streets.
Once Mink was in the right district, Aoba was easy enough to recognise by that shock of unusual blue hair, even through dirty store front windows; he moved to the opposite side of the road and stood back under the awning of an opposite building an in the shadow of the sun, leaning his broad shoulders into the window's panelling. Just to watch. Just to see who would come, who would go, when he left, what his life had become. To compare to his regular monitoring.
(He'd not spoken to Aoba since they arrived. But it didn't mean he wasn't watching him.)
— But what he didn't expect was to see Akira come up to the counter less than a minute later. He was smiling slightly as they spoke, and Mink's gaze narrowed with silent interest, watching their muted exchange through the bustling crowds and the glass panels. Noticing that cheerful affection, the familiarity. They knew each other. They were friends.
Interesting. He crossed his arms, slowly, and he watched their expressions, the warmth, their contact, at odds with the expressions he'd come to expect from either of them. And all the while, his mind ticked over on what to do with that information — how best to deal with the matter of Aoba, and his infinite capacity for friendship.
Perhaps Akira had spared Aoba a visitation from someone less savoury, but it was at some cost. As soon as Akira left the shop, Mink was slowly falling into step behind him, heavy boots muted by a surprising stealth for someone of his size. He followed him out of the busy marketplace, and as the crowds thinned and the voices grew dim in the residential area, it wasn't long before he could act without disturbance.
It was, as it happened, already fairly close to Mink's apartment when his large hand closed down on the back of Akira's neck, and never really breaking pace, he fell in beside him, his head bowed and inclined slightly towards him, speaking close to his hair.
"Come with me."
Maybe he deserved the cards dealt to him, he wasn't sure, anymore. But even if he did, that didn't mean he didn't resent what was handed to him.
Which was perhaps why this life he'd been given suddenly by Zodion seemed too good to be true. Being a thief wasn't his preferred profession, but it wasn't the worst, either. From his given memories, he seemed to carry some set of morals with him and that was a comfort.
Rob from the rich, give to the poor. All that good junk, just like out of one of the storybooks read as a child.
But perhaps the best part, the most enticing part that made him both the most confused and the most content was Aoba. It was strange to be given a set of memories that didn't belong to him as if he was just expected to act it out like he didn't know the difference from fantasy and reality. And this was a very very well played out fantasy, to say the least, but a fantasy all the same. He'd liked Aoba on first meeting, felt a comforting presence there in that smile, but nothing he knew or experienced had prepared him for this.
It was perhaps why he found himself agonizing over the very idea of going to visit the other. What if the memories, the feelings that had been instilled in him were only one sided? He liked Aoba—well, more than liked now without a choice of his own—and wasn't really interested in the Twelve interfering in a possible friendship with their stupidity. So he avoided the matter.
For as long as he could, anyway.
Which wasn't very long at all, if he counted. According to memory, it'd been only two days since he last visited the other when he finally succumbed and he sighed, clearly frustrated, as he made his way to the shop. What was he to tell Aoba, he wondered? How was he to approach such an awkward thing being thrust upon them? He didn't know and it wasn't as if things of this nature were easy for him to discuss before.
...As if anything was easy for him to discuss.
But when he approached the counter after the last customer left Aoba's shop, the way Aoba's expression lighted up in response to a shy smile told him enough. They didn't really need to discuss it because they were on the same page. So, for a few moments in time, Akira was happy. He felt comfortable in Aoba's presence and their small talk was pleasant even being about really nothing at all. It was a nice feeling, being around someone who wanted you and your company. In fact, it was an experience he could almost find himself thanking the Twelve for, with all their miserable antics and interferences and strings that must have been pulled to create such a fairy tale as this.
(But his life was still so small compared to the others they had affected. The nobility, for example, or even the King and his family. Just how many lives had they thrown upside down with this?)
Happiness was fleeting, though.
He left Aoba in the shyest of manners, unable to coax forth the parting affection that the other deserved. But Aoba understood that, too, and had the most pleasing smile to offer in return that Akira wondered what he'd done to suddenly deserve such a person in his life. Neither of them had to accept the role given to them, but it seemed so much easier than to fight, for once, and so much more welcoming of an outcome.
Except the fairy tale started to fade with the dwindling crowds as Akira wandered, lost in his thoughts. Reality started to set in and the happiness that quelled his chest while at the shop started to turn sour. Guilt pressed heavily into his gut, and images started to haunt him. The deserted streets and dark alleyways unfolded no differently they did in Toshima and he closed his eyes, feeling the prickle of a rain torrent that didn't currently exist pull at his jacket through to his skin.
He could smell his own, cursed and awful, blood that he wished had never existed flood his senses. And he could see it, that poison glinting red off of the hatchet blade held by his most precious person. Just as he did then, all he could do now was watch in horror when that blood made it to the other's mouth.
—Memories were merciless.
He felt guilt. A horrible, terrible feeling wrenching at his insides that made him want to scream. He felt an aching worry that if this joke didn't end then somehow things would fall into the same pattern. If things continued like this, would he lose Aoba, too?
Keisuke.
It was too much.
He couldn't hear Mink, but he could smell him even through that illusion his mind was playing on him. But he couldn't bring himself far enough away from his wounds, couldn't pull himself away from that overwhelming grief that consumed him along with the panicked thoughts of another loss. Aoba didn't do anything to deserve this, he'd never hurt him, he couldn't possibly—
—but, what if—
Akira's eyes narrowed, his entire frame stiffening at the heavy touch upon his neck. The thoughts dissipated, the iron smell dying out to leave his nostrils burned by the sweet scent of cinnamon. And now he could react, now he could think clearly of the here and now but it was too late to react to anything. Those words dripped from his hair down his neck and into his spine and for a single moment he thought well, finally, at least it was something that made sense.
At least it was something he more or less deserved, even if he hated. He'd not by any means forgotten the implanted memories of Mink, the supposed role he played with him any more than the supposed memories of Aoba, but he sure as hell did a run around to avoid them.
Clenching his teeth, he didn't make a move to pull away, already well aware of Mink's strength from their last encounter. It took him a few moments of silence, a fear welling inside at the helplessness he felt in the other's presence—the helplessness that was a reality—before he finally gathered the gall to hiss out a question.
"What do you want?"
Towards the edge of the town was a dinky little shack, all rotten wood and decrepit-looking, weathered and dismal against a bleak sky. His 'apartment', so to speak — at least for the duration of this experience. It almost looked monochrome, bleached of colour, but there were little bits of evidence of life speckled neatly around the patchy grass and dirt surrounding the steps up to the entrance. Old rope, a rusted knife clearly used for outside work, and a rather anachronistic box of matches that he must have brought with him from the present day. He took him past all of it, up the creaking steps, and through the lopsided door.
The interior was incredibly spartan, showcasing just a few little items set back into the shadows, illuminated only by the greasy light streaking sluggishly through a small square window. A little dusty cot was parked at the far right of the room, and everything else spread slowly out towards the left; a low table and stool populated by wood-eating insects, a small tub clearly used for bathing, and a cold stone hearth that hadn't seen fire in too long, due to a smoky chimney.
He threw Akira down on the floor in front of the door, freeing his hands to close it behind them. That was all the time he took before he dropped onto his knees over him, shoved him back into the wooden floor, and got in close to his face, his long dreads falling and thumping on Akira's shoulders and the floor. His hand twisted up in his t-shirt to lift it up, and his other hand, rubbed up over his bare stomach, the defined muscle there, making his intentions obvious.
"Where do you know him from. How long have you known him. Why are you speaking to him."
Akira hit the floor hard, the sudden movement giving him little time to catch himself. A small grunt escaped him, feeling the floor splinter against him from impact. In truth, he wasted very little time moving, twisting himself around to try and get back to his feet, but Mink was faster. His back hit the wooden floorboards with an unceremonious thud, but he managed to keep his head from doing the same. However, when he could finally focus, open his eyes which he had closed on impact, he found himself staring at Mink from a very close and uncomfortable distance.
Still, he refused to look away, refused to move his head off to the side or show any sort of submission towards Mink's actions. His eyes were clouded with frustration and defiance, and that defiance only solidified more definitively when the other's hands raised his shirt and moved over bare skin.
(No. NO.)
It would have been a lie to say he wasn't panicking deep on the inside, that he didn't fear what was being suggested. But Mink's words were unexpected and it took him a moment to understand what he meant by him.
...Aoba.
Of course, it made sense. Koujaku had been the one to warn him about Mink in the first place. Aoba and Koujaku were best friends, so it only was natural to come to the conclusion that Aoba and Mink were at the very least acquainted.
And that? That pissed Akira off. Because he couldn't see this guy treating anyone well, couldn't see any way that he and Aoba could actually have a healthy relationship. Maybe something had happened already, or maybe not. The point was that Akira wasn't about to let it go any further than here. He wasn't going to tell Mink things about Aoba that he didn't already know.
Suffer in never knowing, bastard.
"Go to hell."
So he moved back and struck him across the face, hard enough for a hell of a whack to resound through the barren room as his knuckles connected with bone, a pain most normal men would feel. He gripped his face and twisted it roughly back towards him, hardly giving him a moment to catch his breath; he pinched his mouth in by his jaw, gripping his teeth through his flesh. As he shifted his weight, moving to get more leverage and balance his centre of gravity, the old wood creaked under his heavy, muscle-bound weight.
A great shadow of rough fingers and hard bone, he seemed to engulf Akira just by being over him.
"I'll take you there."
His other thick palm moved lower, and he roughly pulled apart the button of his pants.
"Don't think that because you're useful to me, I won't kill you. If it's a choice between you or Aoba, you will always be more worthless." He tightened his grip on Akira's face, and then let go. "If you're speaking to that guy, I want answers."
He only flinched, closing his eyes momentarily when that other hand pulled open the button fastening his pants. Involuntarily, the words Mink spoke sank into Akira's head, and the grip tightening on his jaw hurt more than he was willing to admit. But, then, it disappeared. And, almost immediately, Akira was coughing, sucking in air that he'd held off on since the punch. It was as if reality came crashing back into him, remembering how to breathe, remembering where he was and what was happening.
His coughing fit lasted only a moment before he finally opened his eyes again, glaring up at Mink. Those words pulled at his curiosity, made him wonder just what Aoba was to Mink. But, this was certainly no time to be asking questions.
Kill him, huh? That might be preferable to what was currently happening.
"I'm not telling you anything, so do your worst," Akira snapped in between breaths, trying not to let the fear welling up inside overtake him. He wasn't about to let this person control him. "Aoba doesn't belong to you or anyone else."
Mink drove his fist into Akira's solar plexus, forcing the air out and paralysing his diaphragm; within moments, he was flipping him onto his back, grabbing him by his hips and dragging him back against him, forcing Akira's legs to fold under him. It was all so routine, so disgustingly efficient, but what else should a person expect from a man who kept his promises, who had lived a life like his?
He grabbed Akira by the hair and smashed his nose against the wood, grinding his face into it, smearing blood over it like he's a disobedient dog.
"If you don't tell me, it'll be him next." It was easy to work akira's pants off his hips, at that point, and Mink's voice was low and threatening and a little ragged when he pushed them down off his thighs. "... Is that what you want?"
The hit left him dizzy, barely registering Mink's words and actions. But, despite everything, he didn't miss it. He didn't miss that threat and everything became second to those words. Panic enveloped him, not for his own sake but for Aoba's. Mink didn't seem like the type to make empty threats and somewhere, maybe, he had hoped this sort of threat wouldn't ever surface. But, it had, and now he was stuck between a rock and a hard place, unable to deny that he did very much worry about Aoba's safety.
Goddamn it.
It took him a moment to answer, trying to recover his breath as he did his best to ignore the position he was being put in. No, everything had to be second to Aoba's safety.
"No...! Just leave him alone!" Akira's breath came in gulps, his words a strangled cry. He tried to gather sentences together to answer, but nothing came out other than a desperate plea, his fingernails scraping against the hard wood of the floor before his hands curled into fists. "...Don't... just..."
The worst that could be said was that Akira managed to make him smile. Leave him alone? He breathed sharply through his nose, he shallowly fucked him with his fingers and leaned forward on the creaking floorboards, pressing his weight onto Akira's skull to move down close, hissing against his ear.
"It isn't your place to say that. It's mine." His long dreads thumped against the floor over Akira's head. "... You aren't anyone. If you try to make something of yourself, you'll become an obstacle, and I'll kill you. Don't think you have any power, here — stay a filthy dog who begs for obedience. It's the only way that suits you."
He crooks his fingers inside him, he twists them so they face palm-down.
"Do you think I won't do my worst? There's more at stake than your body."
But that wasn't the point of this, now was it?
He squeezed his eyes shut, the movement of the fingers moving back and forth inside of him uncomfortable at best and painful at worst, but he refused to let any more sounds escape him. He'd endure it, suffer through it in as much silence as possible, just like he did with Keisuke.
But the pressure against his head and the sudden voice at his ear caused him to open his eyes, them narrowing as he did the only thing he could do: listen. The words enraged him, though, sparked a fire that he'd thought had died since he arrived here. How many times had he heard something like that? It wasn't that he was surprised that Mink would say such a thing. But it lit memories that had started to dull into the back of his mind, brought them to the forefront of his mind and to burn.
This... this.
He opened his mouth to reply, but before he could say anything he felt the sudden change of Mink's fingers, and all that escaped was a short but sharp cry.
And he was stuck again listening, listening to the threats and Akira felt a slight shiver of fear course through his shoulders and down his spine. He didn't think of Mink as one to bluff, as one to give mercy once he said he'd do something, but nevertheless it ultimately changed little in the scheme of things.
Although he couldn't move his head, although the blood stuck and smeared his cheek and the side of his face and his nose was still weeping blood, and although the fear was real and screaming inside for him to submit— to try and give whatever Mink wanted in hopes of escaping this—he did the only thing he really knew how to do.
"...Even so, you..." he breathed, the words slipping out in shallow pieces, but heavily drenched in venom, "...are not my master."
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"You have one?" Mink's voice is soft, steady, but it maintains that deep severity from before. His curiosity hasn't slowed him down, it hasn't affected the cold brutality of his hands, his fingers, as they slowly drive in and out of him, developing a pattern that hits against parts that hurt, and parts that don't. "... A 'master'."
No aspect of it bothers him. The stench of blood rising up under his nose, the feel of Akira's body squeezing with discomfort around him, the weak sounds of pain and low, near-silent hisses when Akira tries to quietly endure. Mink's apathy is hardly human, but then, his fixation on his goal is not, either. And the very possibility of Akira making matters difficult for him, the sheer notion that he could damage things with his presence here, by associating with Aoba, by speaking to him...
His reaction is natural. For him.
"Are you..." He moves his other arm under to wrap around Akira's raised thighs, dragging him closer to Mink against the hard floor, and deeper onto his fingers. It's done with such a casual ease, and it's as though Akira's body is just something to be manipulated, for how little effort he goes to to make him comply. "... The sort of person who needs a master to obey."
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He wants to yell and scream, make this the most difficult situation he can possible but he's already experienced what even a little verbal resistance does to make mink react. He can only imagine what physically making this troublesome would cause.
Shit.
He's listening, although barely there, the smell of iron from his blood overwhelming his senses (and if he could pass out to get away from all of this, he would). In truth, Akira doesn't understand anything at all. He doesn't understand the odd possessiveness that drives Mink to feel punishment like this is absolutely necessary simply for talking to another person. It's alien to him, really, but it also makes him all the more resistant to comply. If this guy even has thoughts of touching Aoba, of doing something to him and Akira is standing in the way of that?
So be it.
He's not exactly sure why he feels this way, so self-sacrificial for someone he, in truth, barely knows (these feelings, they're all fake, and when this is all over Aoba will no longer even think twice about him, so why is he so stubborn in protecting this person in any way he can? Hell, is he even protecting him by enduring this or is he just making himself a victim of his own design. He's almost afraid to really know). But what Akira does know is it somehow bothers Mink that he is associating with Aoba and for whatever reason, he wants it to stop. That, itself, is enough for Akira to feel he needs to resist, to hold his ground, and defy this person every step of the way even if the other breaks him in the process.
It's not like last time, he's not needy, he's not desperate for sex and wondering what Mink's real motive is. At this point, he doesn't even care. He's just going to defy him and defy him some more.
...Even if he's doing it for someone who surely won't even remember his name when everything is said and done.
(You aren't anyone.)
—Damn it!
"Just get the hell away from me!" he hisses out, flinching as he's dragged across the floor and further into Mink's fingers. It hurts. His body isn't so accepting of this as it was last time, his physical and mental desire for once mostly on the same page.
(But, even then, Akira can feel it, can remember getting hard from Keisuke's cruel and violent actions. This would turn out to be the same no doubt, because he can already feel those fingers, as much as they are a nuisance and invasion to his body, are touching soft spots that he doesn't want to be touched.
There's nothing more humiliating than something like this feeling pleasurable in any manner or form.)
Akira says nothing further, perhaps unable to think of any real response to Mink's questions. No, he has no master, and he doesn't plan on getting one any time soon.
But, vaguely, in the back of his mind, he remembers his final moments in Toshima, remembers black hair and a black leather clad body slamming him against a wall and attempting to have his way with him with Keisuke's corpse right in front of them. He'd fought back, let his sorrow and his rage do whatever he could to get away but ultimately he'd failed. And he remembers those words as he shifted in and out of consciousness in the other's arms.
(—You belong to me.)
It makes him sick.
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He can feel and see every inch of Akira's tension, his naked back flinching and muscles shaking, the feeling of his body tightening in resistance when he hits something he likes and something he can't stand. His breaths sound angry, forced through his teeth; Mink can imagine his face on the other side, his eyes scrunched tight, his mouth pulled back in pain, wetness soaking his eyelashes. Mink drinks it in like it's a scene in a film, a distant recollection of something. This is a side of Akira few get to see.
(If he knew the true number, he might be disappointed. But given how Akira reacts to him, given the way his body and mind comes to endure and cope, like someone long-suffering might, he may not be entirely surprised.)
That sharp, desperate demand (that can only be understood as a plea) breaks Mink's rhythm — a sharp stutter of motion, and it's the only evidence of surprise to be felt, with Akira's head down like that. It makes Mink's fingers slow their rough ministrations until they stop entirely inside of him, and he just holds him there, his grip around his weight, the heat of their bodies shared against a cold floor. Then he draws them out, slowly, slowly, and rests them against Akira's hip.
His silence doesn't endure for long.
"... Don't pretend to care what I do to you."
A moment's pause, and he grabs Akira by the shoulder and flips him onto his back once more, pressing his weight onto his chest with his palm. The other hand works the button of his pants apart, and he draws his thick, dark cock into his hands, already hard and full of blood, and he holds it like he's waiting for Akira to look at it, to notice it, to be aware of what's going to come. His breaths escape through his nose, punctuating every word. "... If it's that important, do what I tell you to. I'm not interested in what kind of value you prescribe to yourself, if it's not enough to make you obedient."
He pulls Akira to where he wants him, slim thighs braced across his huge ones, hard as rock with muscle and tension. His cock nudges against Akira's opening, already red, swollen from his fingers. He spits into his hand, but it's no lubrication at all. It's nothing.
"I'll treat you like a dog if you do it first."
Keeping his weight on Akira's chest and gripping one slim thigh, he leans sharply forward, and he begins to sink his cock inside Akira's body. There's pain, even on his side, the resistance of unwilling, tight flesh that simply bows under his own — and then he starts to push through it, forcing Akira's tense body open inch by inch until he's settled entirely inside him.
He watches his face constantly, feeling his heartbeat through his palm. Saying nothing more.
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The silence is so loud to him as he remains where he is, making no attempts to move as if anything he might do to shake the sudden calm would surely cripple its existence. But, even with a little of that tension letting loose, unable to hold itself so easily with the immediate threat now outside of him (even if he can still feel those fingers press against the skin of his hip, something present there as well that he can't quite make out) it doesn't stop his body from shaking as he breathes. Soft, broken apart sobs rattle from his chest in the quiet, unable to be withheld forever. In that sanctuary of quiet, where he's just being held against the floor and the other, he can't seem to keep them down. It's so much more vivid, so much more obvious and impossible to ignore the knowledge of what just happened (what is happening, what's still going to happen) between them. As much as his voice demands (pleas), as much as his body resists, when he's left only to have the thoughts sink in rather than narrowly focusing on keeping them away and trying to get free or take what's coming without true understanding it's not so hard to see why he'd have trouble keeping it together during this time.
He opens his eyes just slightly, staring off at nothing in particular (doesn't matter, his vision is burning and blurred, anyway), and for a moment he can't help but second guess everything he's doing and letting happen. When had this sort of thing ever gotten him anywhere, when had him putting himself in the line of fire ever worked in his favor and keep someone safe? And he knows there was very little that could be done to avoid this, but it still hurts, it still smarts, it still makes him feel cold and bitter towards the very individual's presence in his life (that he didn't even ask for, as much as those fake feelings forced into him tell him otherwise).
And then the silence is broken, not by his own sounds, but by Mink's voice and Akira's eyes widen, the very sound of the other harshly reminding him that he is still there. That this pause wouldn't last forever, that either Mink would have to let him go or do something else. Those words don't make the idea of being let go sound promising and a sense of head-clouding accepting despair grips him and why why can't he just pass out, why is his body insistent on seeing this through? That feeling doesn't last very long, at all, though, not when his shoulder is grabbed.
"Don't—" (please!)
Akira's words hold little power and whatever else he may have wanted to say dies as his back hits the floorboards now instead. It's instinct, an automatic reaction for his hands to abandon their fisted states to clutch onto Mink's wrist and lower arm when that firm pressure is applied to his chest. He doesn't need this, it already hurts enough from his breathing and withholding sickening sobs right from the very back of his mouth down his throat to spread out into his chest. His grip tightens, but he is well aware he has nowhere near the strength to even possibly remove the weight of this man that was helping hold him down in addition to raw strength. By now, he's blinked away the water obstructing his vision, but when he can't bring himself to look up at Mink right away, he instead finds his eyes unwillingly falling to Mink's hard cock and a burning cold slithers through him because now there's no avoiding the fact of what's going to happen. The only thing he has to look forward to other than that is the terrifying handful of unknown seconds prior to it as Akira rips his gaze away to look at something—anything—else. Really, does it even matter, though? Mink's words still spill over him, and his expression grimaces in helpless silence, frantic thoughts scrambling through his head. If he said something now, if he gave in and begged and promised to obey anything Mink wanted him to, would it stop this?
Probably not, because this isn't just a threat for if he doesn't obey, it's a taste of punishment for getting in the way in the first place, for needing to be put back in place. Something to remember, to not forget.
His heartbeat has been anything but normal since the start of this, but it only intensifies when he's pulled, shifting into place and while his grip never lessens, his fear rises to a point that everything is starting to run and bleed together. It's when the other's cock touches the swollen skin around there that he speaks, fearful and desperate and shit why is he even trying?
"No, stop, this isn't—I—!" And a clear sound of frustration escapes from him, unable to really find a proper exclamation that might stop this. He hears Mink's voice (or someone's), is vaguely aware of that action, but it's not really settling like it should. That grip on his thigh seems to be the final push for him to yell one last time to try and stop—stop who?
(oh god.)
His mind statics and he squeezes his eyes tight shut, screaming, "Don't—DON'T, Keisuke—!" before it drowns out into a sudden cry at the initial push of Mink's cock inside of him. And the pain doesn't numb, it rips through him because no no this isn't going to work, this isn't possible, his body is going to break in half if this goes on any further. It's white hot fucking awful pain that renews itself every inch when the other starts to force it through rigid tensed muscle. That resistance isn't enough to keep it from continuing, and Akira chokes on his own sounds, fingers tightening all the more on Mink's arm as if he can escape some of the pain he's feeling by doing so. While he does manage to stop himself from yelling out as he had done initially, it's clear what the suppressed sounds gurgling from him are supposed to be. Tears spill even from his closed eyes, his teeth gritting together so hard to try and drag some more focus off what is happening. Every slide forward brings new rigid and continuous sharp pain and more and and more he's becoming convinced at some point his body won't be able to sustain it, that it eventually won't stretch and give even with that insistent movement forward.
But, somehow, it does (he's sure not without damage, but at least he hasn't been ripped in half as it felt like would be the end result) and when the other is completely inside of him with no room left to go, Akira's head drops back against the wood of the floor in defeat, in exhaustion, his gray hair fanning softly out in contrast to the dark floor. And fuck, he's ready to give up, he's done, it's enough, isn't it?!
Except, no, no it's not it hasn't even really started yet, has it? He breathes in a few times heavily (and god, even just doing that is enough for some pain to flicker through him again with Mink's cock present inside of him. He can't move, he can't do anything, everything he might try would only result in assisting to hurt himself more.
"Ah..." it's a soft and useless half sob before he finally opens his eyes to come and stare up at Mink looking directly down at him. And for a moment, even in his expression, there's an obvious look of submission, of acceptance of terms that the other wants, just let him go, please, just stop, already! It's only a moment, though, before a sense of focus manages to return to him and his eyes become quite cold and defiant again, even with him clearly in pain. He maybe have panicked earlier, may have screamed for someone that wasn't Mink, but that confusion also seems to be gone, judging from the way he continues to look at the other.
(But it's really hard, really so close to impossible that he wants to give in and look away. It's just that he can't.)
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Keisuke... sounded like a name to him. Then, is he reliving some trauma, going through this again? Is this a familiar experience, the feeling of being overpowered and beaten, of being violated? He wonders if Keisuke might be the 'master' in question, but then, if that's the case, he doubts Akira's that obedient to him. Perhaps he's not the pet that he initially seemed.
Mink settles his hands on his thigh, shifting Akira where he wants him, and he thrusts again slowly. It's not a pleasant feeling, fucking someone when he's so dry, but even that discomfort becomes a faint form of pleasure, a distant sensation that could grow more. Compared to what Akira must be enduring, it's incomparable; just the sound of his pain urges Mink on, fucking him deep, dragging his slim thighs back against him, reminding him always that he can't get away.
"Are you going to keep watching me." Mink gazes down Akira's body, but he can still feel him staring, that defiant gaze. His breaths are even, gravelly, deep. He's getting into the rhythm of it. "If you think you're making a point, it's wasted. You can't scream for mercy from a man who isn't here and expect me to be shaken by you."
He meets his look again, emphasising his point as he rolls his hips against Akira's ass rhythmically; his heavy, thick brow is furrowed, his scowl twitches from it, but still, he moves into him. And it must be obvious that teaching Akira a lesson is the primary goal of this, more even than enjoying it, more than need or desire or any such excuse. He wants Akira to say only one thing to him, and that's the only thing that could possibly end this.
(... He just can't risk it. On the cusp of something with Aoba, if Akira says a single word about him, if Aoba says a single word about him, if either of them come together to share anything, it'll double his inconvenience. It'll make everything profoundly difficult when it doesn't have to be, and that'll apply to both of them.
If Aoba is compelled to share his experiences to warn Akira, and Akira shares his experiences in turn, it terminates the slim advantage he has with both — monopolising the convenience of Akira's body, and ensnaring Aoba.
He doesn't have time to humour their affection. Even in this place, where time is all he has.)
He needs to put more pressure on him to relent, it seems. His hand clamps loosely on Akira's throat, but it squeezes firmly, once, and he fucks him harder and sharper as he does it. And then the pressure slips away, and Mink hisses, softly.
"Who is Keisuke."
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Akira wants to say it even, tries to distribute the words to allow him to roll them off his tongue, but the pain of being reentered stops him. He thought it had been bad enough the first time, thought it had been awful with Mink simply sheathed inside of him, and he thought how unbearable it was when Mink decided to move and pull out.
None of it prepares Akira any better for the ripping burn that claws mercilessly against him without hesitation or relent. It still doesn't end, though. And even when he knows it's coming, knows this is going to come again and again in the same manner, even though the size of Mink's cock will undoubtedly stretch him to make him more accommodating to the other's body and actions, the pain never seems to lessen. Not with how he does it. And all of this being done dry makes everything worse. It's cruel, it's unwanted, it's violent, and Akira finds very little pleasure associated with it (but he supposes his body can, supposes against his wants and feelings it'll pull any small form of pleasure out of the brutal actions it can and make them work to stimulate his body.)
It's too much, he knows he tries to resist, tries to let nothing escape him. But he also knows the constant rhythm starting to be formed is sending blinding pain searing through him and things are starting to be seen in flashes with small instances blacked out. He's sure it spills from him almost every time, though, the vocal response to the pain that refuses to relent.
And each time, there's a dash of hope that it will end, that he will escape and avoid it coming back inside once it's removed, but Mink's pulling and constant repositioning make him feel hopelessly trapped. It only amplifies the surge of despair that lurches in his gut when he's sunk into again.
By the time Mink speaks, Akira can barely hear him. The blood pounding in his ears is deafening and listening to understand also means assessing his current situation once again. And it's still painful, still everything he fears and hates. He does want to keep watching Mink, wants to cling to some hope that staring him down despite all this being forced upon him will do something. He also has to be realistic and realize he can't keep that up forever.
There's a distinct rhythm by now that he recognizes, but it's when Mink looks back at him and reiterates the truth of his words with his actions that Akira finds himself flinching visibly, his eyes squeezing shut and momentarily blackening his vision. He knows it's punishment, he gets it, but he still doesn't understand why. He wants it to stop, wants all of it to stop, he'll do anything, he swears—
—but as scared as he is for himself, the fact this all has something to do with Aoba scares him even more. And it's something he has to consider, has to force himself to think on because perhaps Aoba would indeed be safer with Akira doing as told rather than Akira being stupid and stubborn. (But even then, he is realizing that he can't truly answer Mink's initial demands, anyway.)
His thoughts are crushed similar to how his throat practically collapses into itself when Mink's fingers gather at his neck and make that sudden motion. It's just once, but it's firm and real and Akira reacts accordingly, immediately trying to breathe in and pull the obstruction away. His whole body tenses unconsciously and uncontrollably. It just makes it all worse, all the more felt because with that hard and sharp thrust (moreso than what he's already been experiencing), it of course hurts. With his body constricting, the muscles in his ass also tightening considerably, he automatically tightens around Mink's cock, causing every ounce of force, rip, burn, and other sensation resulting from being fucked like this to be drawn out and amplified.
Again, he feels as if his consciousness is becoming splotchy. Maybe from the physical pain or the mental trauma, he doesn't know. What he does know is as much as he wants to, he doesn't remember screaming over the pain that he was sure couldn't have gotten much worse seconds before being proved wrong. But, he knows he must have because when the other loosens his hold on Akira's neck, he finds fresh tears burning behind closed eyes, generating an unpleasant coughing fit and his head has finally turned off to the side and he is unable to reassert that defiant gaze he had on Mink merely minutes ago.
Unwillingly, Akira is starting to realize that he may not be able to escape this without giving Mink exactly what he wants, after all. This may be a situation where struggling never reaps even the smallest of victories. He may very well have to obey when he reaches his breaking limit (and if he ever doubted he had one with all the things he'd been through up until now, he certainly doesn't, anymore. He's feeling worthless, used, violated, and whatever else might surface. But most of all, he feels dirty and all this trying to protect Aoba and their relationship business suddenly seems so futile, then. Because, if nothing else, there's now an overwhelming sense of disgust that is telling him he can't see Aoba, anyway, after this. He can't be around someone like him after being treated and ultimately becoming filth like this).
Still, the question concerning that other person isn't lost to anything or anyone (how could he ever ignore or miss something with that name?). But, it's too much, and he chokes back a sob before forcing the whisper of a dead-flowing desperate plea. (He can't answer that, he can't think about him any more than he already has.)
"...Please, don't..."
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There isn't much to think or feel about it, even with Akira staring up at him with his eyes steadily leaking fluid, his teeth bared and gritting their way through the pain. He watched countless men suffer like this in the prisons, with pillows against their mouths or knives at their throat to muffle their agonised screams, and it always left a menacing air in the atmosphere, a feeling like being trapped with wild animals. Akira suffers all the more for having nothing to cry into except the empty, bare air in front of Mink's face, because he won't let him hide, he won't let him turn, he won't let him do anything. How strange, that at one point Mink looked down on the men who sunk this low. Is it different for him, when it's not out of his own personal urges, but used for discipline, interrogation, asserting superiority? Does it take on some other intention, or is that just an excuse for what he inflicts?
He's considered the question briefly before, in the aftermath. But Mink's not very philosophical, and even less so when he's fucking Akira.
He can see Akira beginning to drift, both eyes gazing sleepily and despairingly through his closing eyes, his mouth growing slack for the small, pathetic noises he pushes from his lungs. Mink draws his hands back and strikes him with the back of his palm, throwing his head to the side. Mink's breathing hard through his gruffness, picking up his speed, and his hand quickly moves back to grip Akira, holding him in place. He's going to come soon, and it's obvious. Whether Akira answers him or not, this is going to conclude in only one way, now.
"We aren't done. Stay awake."
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In this state, where he's not resisting, his body more accepting of the other, the pain starts to wind together in some form of unusual dirty pleasure. And he's so glad he won't have to experience the rest of it, both from Mink and himself, that he can almost allow himself to take the small biting pleasure that will leave with his consciousness.
Except, that hit is enough to knock him from the daze he was so thankful had come and Akira stares off to the side a moment wide-eyed and stunned as everything starts to reorganize and rush back against him. The sounds of sex fill his head, right down to the slight squelching sound of pre-cum being constantly smeared about his insides. The constant motion and consequent feelings of pain and sickening stings of peasure cause his breath to hitch, any sounds from him having been momentarily silenced from the force of the hit as well as the resulting shock.
Akira hears Mink's words as he returns to holding him in position. No, Akira is done. He doesn't want to conttinue this "discipline" , doesn't want to be awake to feel the man orgasm inside of him as his body is useded and treated like it doesn't even belong to him. But, the opportunity is gone to escape and he seems to now have no choice but to let the other have his way with him until he is done. Each thrust becomes distinctive and Akira has to finally bring a hand over his mouth, crushing his fingers about it in hopes of stifling each and every sound from him: pain, pleasure—but especially the despairing and disgusted sob when it hits that not only does he truly have nothing left inside of him to resist, but that he's giving in completely in some sick hope it'll make this nightmare a little more bearable until it ends.
It just terrifies him that he feels there's going to be no waking up from this. (He's never hated anyone in his life as he does Mink in this moment.)
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Mink can see him, see how the tip turns and swells with blood, how his cock judders with each rough thrust and inches a little higher, soon pressing against his belly. And quick as he's being, close as he's already getting himself, seeing Akira stifling sounds that aren't just pain is enough to make him slow his motions down, coming to a near-stop. In the end, who's just barely moving himself, scraping himself back and forth over Akira's insides, and he catches his breath unsteadily. Breathes out hard through his nose.
Mink palms at his dick. He turns him and grips his flesh firm in his fingers, squeezes hard and slides it down, pulling his foreskin down, rolling it back up again.
He really does like to suffer. Even in a humiliating situation like this, where any man would only feel agony, he's getting hard, making pathetic noises that make Mink's cock pulse inside his ass. He touches Akira's hand with his own, peeling it away from his mouth while he strokes him, and resumes those quick, sharp little thrusts into his ass.
"Do you like smelling your own blood?" Planting Akira's hand on the floor, Mink leans close, breathes the scent of Akira's hair while he rolls his hips into him, snapping deep inside him again, and again, until his own precum is marching down the cleft of Akira's ass, onto the floor.
"Do you like feeling powerless when a man fucks you? Do you like where my cock touches you?" They aren't questions asked to be answered. But they're doing something for Mink, at least, if that wet sound of his thrusts is any indication, if the slight ragged edge to his voice is anything to go by.
"Are these better questions for you. Are they easier to answer."
It's too bad he already knows what the answer would be.
He lets go of his cock to strike him with the back of his hand again, leaves a streak of Akira's own damp fluid across his face — and he grips his jaw in his hand, forces his eyes onto him, squeezing tightly.
"I could make your life hard for you over nothing, if that's how you want to play me. You won't take much of my time; you're not made to play these games and win." His voice is tinged by the faintest, nastiest smile. "... You obviously prefer to lose.
"I'm asking you again, Akira. Who is Keisuke."
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Everything is enough to makehim want to vomit, really, but it's like everything else, something he can't do. When Mink touches his cock, confirming to Akira that not only he is hard but that Mink knows and Mink isn't going to ignore it, his fingers only clench tighter in desperation about his mouth. He closes his eyes, trying hard to think of something somewhere else, but instead he only hopes it'll help stifle some of the feeling that jolts through him when he's squeezed, the spill of pre-cum escaping and trickling down one side before its remneant pools abve Mink's warm fingers before its spread back up against his erection by the movement upward.
He, too, tries to struggle and prevent his hand from being pulled away, still atempting to somehow not be affected by all these disgusting actions and words and circumstances. But, all of it is no good, especially when Mink starts up again and Akira gasps for breath, a strangled cry and moan mixed together. As his hand is locked down to the floor he's stretched out over, Akira tries even harder to not let the closeness Mink has gotten by leaning over him bother him.
(He's fucking him again and he's beginning to like it as much as he already hates it.)
Another impossible feat, especially when he starts speaking such viled and wicked questions; Akira coughs a small sob, a shiver creeping through him as he feels Mink's fluid leaking out and sinking down his exposed skin before meeting the floor. Forced to listen to every question, he swallows, gritting his teeth as denial naturally sinks out. There's no need to answer because Mink knows it but Akira would also give the world to make him forget and so he attempts, anyway. "No—"
(There is no no. he revels in being stripped of everything, seeks to be overpowered and held down while mercilessly fucked. the pain and panic reach perfect balance. the cock forcing itself inside of him is starting to hit his sweet spot with eagerness enough that small moans escape every time it happens. The wet noisy thrusts make his own dick ache, his mind easily enough wandering to imagine seeing the other enter him over and over to that sound and Mink's own shortened breath.)
The second slap causes Akira's eye to open particularly at the wet feeling of his own pre-cum smearing across his face. It's an awful filthy display right now between that, his own cock being coated by his fluids and Mink's own flood of pre-cum slicked into and around the once dry ring of muscles inside his ass. And then the nightmare gets worse because Mink grabs him and hurts him in his grip as he forces Akira to look at him, to once again acknowledge this isn't some dak dirty fantasy he's daydreaming. This is real and Akira's completely ensnared.
He's tired, he hurts, and he wants to beg for this to stop as much as he wants to tell the bastard to fuck him harder, but instead he glares up at the other the entire time he's kept to look only at the other. Even with everything happening, Akira looks as if it were possible to rip Mink's face off, he'd be trying to do so.
That nasty little smile accompanying the jab added to insult doesn't lessen the desire. With the question posed again, this time his name sunk into it, Akira is momentarilyquiet. And then there's the smallest sneer snatching the corners of his mouth as the words quietly fall from his lips.
"A friend."
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Or perhaps a friend that betrayed him. Perhaps Akira's nature is innate, and Keisuke is the one who took advantage of this condition of his for his own ends. Is that what it was? Some nightmarish flashback to the last man who violated him.
"...The one doing this to you is me. I'm fucking you." He pins Akira and drives himself in firmly as if to make the point clear, grunting heavily, his deep voice rumbling out between his teeth as he looks down on him. He keeps that pronounced rhythm going, grinding into his prostate, lifting his hips with his motions. "... Not a friend. Not anyone else. You should be able to tell that from how much you like it."
And from how much it hurts... but that's one and the same for him, isn't it. Mink slides his large hand away from Akira's jaw, down his throat, over his heaving chest, his stomach, to envelop his cock again slowly, working his fingers under the foreskin, teasing at the hypersensitive tip. He never lets up on his movements.
He's obviously not going to stroke Akira properly to get him off, any more, and Mink's already breathing harder, his brow furrowing, his hips jerking sharply upwards with growing rapidity, a sense of mounting desire and urgency. But rubbing his thumb against that sensitive tip where sensation is strongest, he's obviously happy to tease Akira right to the end.
Given what Akira's used to, Mink has a feeling he probably wouldn't even need that much to get off, anyway. He just wants to make it a little more insufferable.
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That's why it's probably inevitable that despite his hate, his anger, his absolute disgust with the other and wanting to give him nothing but the ugliest expressions of his feelings that his underlying emotions would again start to bubble to the surface. The momentary silence reminds him of everything that's happening, reminds him of something he never wants to remember. And it causes fresh tears to burn his eyes at the ultimately wash over of helplessness, his stomach knotting and making him feel even more sick than he has been. While he can't imagine what conclusions Mink might be coming to with the answer, Akira isn't sure he cares because nothing he decides is going to change what Akira wants to so desperately (he wants to avoid the end of this. it's enough, he's suffered enough, hasn't he? he's been violated enough, fucked like nothing more than a tool meant to get someone off, his blood littering far too many places of him from slaps and hits. but even then, there's still the remaining climax that will happen: Mink releasing himself and if he's really unlucky, he himself doing so as well (he'd rather be denied completely and than orgasm from such an awful situation).
Mink finally speaks, though, but Akira can't say he feels one way or another at the verbal response. It's controlling, and it's demanding and forcing Akira to remember with no silly additions included. He wants him to remember how it felt being violated by him, how his cock felt as it drove into him over and over, and who he should be screaming for: for mercy, for more, and for everything else in between.
So while he doesn't feel surprised, he doesn't like it, either. But being pinned again and brutally driven into causes him to scream and he still tries even now to wiggle away both from the other man's hand and cock as well as the other hand holding him in place to force him to keep facing his violator . He can't stand it, listening and looking at him as he's fucked over and over for burying the truth far deeper than words could penetrate. And it is unbearably painful, but that pressured against his prostate is dragging out that humiliating pleasure on another level. Mink reinforcing the presence of that feeling with his words only serves to make it all the more upsetting.
There really is little left in his mind to try and cover this situation with, whether it be a flashback or just hoping for something to lessen the raw reality. But, he can't, because everything is still different than what he ultimately knows, it no longer paralleled enough with Keisuke for him to even think on it. It's all there, hitting him every time again and again as he's driven into and while he wishes anything but, his mind is being overwhelmed by this person as much as his body is. He isn't going to forget, he isn't going to mistake it for anyone else ever. It's just going to be him, smothering everything Akira is with a disgusting lack of real effort.
He clenches his teeth and holds his eyes shut tight when his face is finally let go of, wanting to kick and scream some more for Mink to stop touching him as the other's hand moves down the skin of his body back down there. In his head, he doesn't want to be driven to release, he wants this to be over with and for everything to stop and he just wants to be denied so he doesn't have to deal with one more crushing factor to this situation, swallow that desire and need until it turns sour and he no longer cares for it. Of course his cock has to be touched even still, though, of course it just adds to everything else. It's all suffering on a level he has no desire to experience even in the most psychologically deluded crevices of his mind.
"St—op—IT—!" he manages to yell, but it collapses into a rather hopeless sob between heavy breaths.
He hates this.
He hates him.
He hates himself.
The only hope he really has left now is that when this is done, Mink will uphold his threat of killing him from the very beginning.
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If Akira disobeys him now, Mink would probably be pleased
Mink's breaths grow suddenly, sharply heavier as he keeps pushing into him, puffs out breaths in time with the jagged rhythm of his hips, and there's the faintest stench of blood lingering as it clots and dries against his skin, something that penetrates the air slowly, and lingers faintly on the edge of detection. He doesn't need to smell it to know it; he can feel the tackiness of it. He can feel how Akira's body neither resists nor accepts consistently, but constantly flinches and squirms and shudders beneath him, experiencing a pleasure more humiliating than any kind of pain; with his ruthless streak, he's never accomplished such a thing before Akira. It fascinates him to watch him try to smother it.
Does it make it that much worse?... Perhaps he knows, in the aftermath, it's one of those things he'll have to live with; that he gave up something Mink wasn't even out for, something he didn't want, and he had no control over whether it happened or not. What a curse to be burdened with.
Even when those micro-cuts, those perforations of such tender skin are being rubbed and filled with salty precum, how can anyone look past it to find pleasure in the steadiness of his movements? Even if he does hit the right spot, the pain should cut through him like a knife. But if it's the pain that makes it good, Mink wonders what a man would have to do to hurt Akira without arousing him. Would he get hard if he were cut? Stabbed? Shot?
Frankly, it's a point of fascination.
He rubs the end of his cock firmly, steadily, and his lips part for his ragged, sharp pants. His motions get more staccato; seconds off, he lets go of Akira's cock to grab his hips and shove Akira down against him mercilessly, over and over, meeting each move until he finally doubles over with an obscenely honest gasp, his long dreadlocks thumping on Akira's chest. Something inside him surges, swells finally, held off for far too long, and he bites his lower lip as he comes into him, hard.
He rides it off with small, twitching, jerking motions, his balls tensing, pulsing it all out, until he's completely still against Akira's hips.
He's silent, for a while.
And then he leans back away from him slowly, still catching his breath in those broad, deep lungs of his. The cold of the room settles over his shoulders and his abdomen, his wet flesh, like a veil. Suddenly everything that was exciting has become repulsive; the dry tacky feeling of blood on his dick, the sound of Akira's pain driven out of him, the flushed, red skin on his cheeks and the marks where Mink had struck him.
He stares down at Akira as he slowly pulls his thick cock out of him, and he looks down to catch the sight of his own come seeping out thickly, rolling down his flesh and onto the boards below.
That, too, is disgusting. But it also brings with it a feeling of victory, of sick satisfaction. Knowing it must burn as hot as any brand.
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Something in his mind snapped, broke clean in half. He can't remember past his last yell for the other to stop, but his mind cuts clear sharp imagery to wash any doubts of how it may have occurred.
He can't place the exact moment Mink came inside of him, but he knows he did if only because he can feel it. He can't say when he himself did, either, but he knows it happened because those few seconds of ecstasy hit him and everything else and common sense are flowing back too quickly to suggest much of anything else.
...But he doesn't want any of it. He doesn't want to realize everything in a completely different state. He just wants to be dead. The other pulling out of him is a rather painful jolt to being consciously aware of everything he doesn't want to be, though. And as he feels cum freely flow out of his ass and spill down onto the floor, his eyes narrow to to almost pinpricks as his jaw locks in horror and he actually freaks, actually screams—an aggravated and terrified and helpless sense of frustration. Because yelling is better than crying some more about the situation (but it doesn't quell anything, it doesn't remove his thoughts nitpicking over and over that all those cuts and tears that that thick substance has burned right over all of them and no no no NO that is never going to go away, he's never going to to be able to tend to those areas before it starts to twist and heal with those remnants still there and it's never going to fucking come out what is hesupposdtodousodosdajkg,!!) His chest feels tight and he must be scared because he doesn't know what to do now that he's been pulled out of and has some ability to move away like he'd been trying to all along. It's too late, though, the freedom does absolutely nothing for him.
He tries not to think about anything but all that is happening is that he's thinking about everything and he can't seem to pull his mind away now from the event that just occurred and the man who did it. Akira can't register anything or anyone else. He can't think of back home, he can't think of Aoba, he can't even think on how defiant he'd been when first dragged here.
(...He can still hear him, though. And he can still hear himself.)
And why can't he stop trembling? Why is he so far gone that he can't control what's happening as it replays over and over in his mind? Everything was real. The warmth of those hands were real and if those hands were real then so was everything else they held him down to do.
(He's never felt so helpless as he does now.)
...He wants to shower. The inexplicable need to shower presses over him, the concept of filth clawing at him suddenly and everything's amplified. The blood, the cuts and tears and even his own dried precum that had been hit across his face earlier. Everything is grimy and unsettling and it all sticks to him. He can smell it enough for him to want to vomit, the blood now curdling the smell of sex now that the act has died off. But, he's used to smelling blood. Smelling his own is not all that different. Any panic he might feel that it's something to tend to is lost amongst other things. That urgency to just leave, to scrub off every remnant of what just happened. He'll take a knife and peel his own skin off if he has to.
—It's fine, though, right? It'll be fine once he gets rid of the feeling. He's overreacting.
Everything bouncing around his head is just white noise. And he doesn't have to look at Mink even if he knows Mink is staring at him, he doesn't have to acknowledge that he's not alone.
Akira pulls himself into a fetal position, his hands slowly moving to grasp at his pants before squirming to pull them up. Blood and semen still coat him but the knowledge does very little to stop his actions. And they're so mechanical, so particular and simple that as he finally finishes getting them on and turns to crawl onto his knees and push himself to stumble to his feet it's hard to tell if he's even there psychologically. Because he's silent and his expression is blank (but his eyes are puffy and glassy and tears are still there even despite the silence) other than his uneven breathing, his throat run raw from crying and screaming and moaning and whatever else the fuck he did during that grotesque session. It's a wonder how he's even got the strength left to get to his feet and stay there after that sort of physical trauma, nevermind walk. But he does and he's not doing anything other than walking out that door without ever hesitating to look at the other person here or the place they're in.
. . .
...Nothing is fine. He's not okay. And he doesn't have any of that strength at all.
Akira goes to take those steps forward and everything hits him again. He feels like he can't breathe and he gags before his legs give way as does his consciousness (finally, but with no saving grace because everything already fucking happened and he's never going to forget any of it now) and he crumples into a heap back on the floor.
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Well. That's just how things are. Should he feel any other way? Maybe pity, at most.
Seeing how Akira came himself, hearing him helplessly moan — it was interesting at the time, when he still wanted him. And it was a just punishment, he thinks, for the man who wouldn't listen to him, to have to hear himself crying out that way. Whether or not he'll get the message, this probably won't be the last time he uses Akira like this. Not after what he's just seen of him.
But for now...
He lets him go. Getting up himself, he just stands there watching while Akira struggles with working his pants up his curled body, and he ponders whether or not this'll be adequate. If he'll return to Aoba again, if he'll keep pushing for this thing he's not allowed to have. He wonders.
He thinks of Aoba, as he saw him. Through the window, smiling, looking strange with an expression Mink rarely saw directed his way. Akira the same. Both of them looking at each other, oblivious to him, and the thought grates on him in some inexplicable, unpalatable way.
He pulls out his pipe and some fresh tobacco, strikes a match and lights it. The smoke wisps across his vision; the next time he looks at Akira, he's up, and he's moving at a crawl like the undead, looking thoroughly pitiful. And here Mink thought he'd move like the wind — whether he was ravaged or not.
When he falls in a crumpled heap, Mink pulls his pipe from his mouth and inspects it. It's only when that silence drags on ten, eleven seconds that he turns, looking at the broken shape near the doorway, and he exhales with audible irritation. Passed out, did he.
"... Where's your will to live." He turns, moving over with his heavy boots thump-thumping on the creaking wood, and he leans down, grasping a handful of Akira's shirt and wrenching him up so fast he rips seams under his arms. He looks at that blank face, the eyes closed and the space around them sore and swollen and red. Tears mark his face, only now really noticed.
"... I thought you were a fighter."
He was going to just let him go, wasn't he. Not because Akira isn't his commodity, but because he didn't want him, he was done with him, he was going to give him a chance to do the right thing while out from under his thumb. Wasn't he.
He looks at his slim neck, his narrow back, he feels the shape of him against his fist. And he just drags his exhausted, unconscious body back in, slamming the door shut behind him.